Hi y’all! I realize it has been a while since I have blogged. I have had so many things rolling around in my head with these things going on. Let me recap the fitness first then I will go into all of that. I think we walked around 4 days last week, with about 43 minutes and 1.80 some miles each time. Friday and Saturday I didn’t count because I did some shopping and we did I know around 2-3 miles each day after I had already walked in the morning. Due to some of my life changes I had to purchase some new pants and they were, get this, 2 sizes smaller than normal! Holy cow! I got these at a place where I have to normally buy bigger so they will fit. So when I wore them they were still too big! Holy smokes! I am completely inspired to keep doing this and keep going. I sometimes don’t feel like I am doing much but I guess I am. My Mom even told me this morning that she can really tell I have lost the weight. I am glad. I am working hard to get it off. I did have a milkshake yesterday and my sugar was high this morning so I am going to have to tighten the diet down and keep on walking. Today when I get done walking with what I have already done while shopping I will have close to 3 miles total. I will get this. I have this thing. Someday I will own “I lost a bunch of weight!” I do know all the walking I am doing now and at my new job (more on that later) is saving me from putting on a bunch of weight.
Wednesday we will be having the #Alittlebitofeverything link-up party! I am so happy that Iveth from fortheloveto.com lets me co-host the link-up with her! I have such a great time meeting new people and reading all the wonderful blogs! Please, please, PLEASE come link up your blogs! We would love to hear from you! More information will be posted Wednesday morning. I can’t wait to hear from you and read your blog!
I have been away for a few days, although I have been promoting and talking about #Alittlebitofeverything. I have a lot to say so here I go. I made some decisions. They weren’t easy decisions. School starts back this week, so that is a huge part of my life. I must proceed on and get my MS so I can eventually find a good job. In the mean time, I did some soul-searching. I have attacked this from every angle. I tried to look at it as if it was my problem, an internal problem. I have tried to analyze and figure out if it was my expectations, my attitude, or what part of me made my disgust for my job at the group home so evident. I finally decided that it wasn’t me. Without going into great detail what the deal was, I made the decision to leave on the premise that I cannot do this job any more. This is all true. Fact is, it was just not for me anymore. I had hoped that it was. I thought I knew how to do it. I did it for 5 years. I am not sure what changed in those 5 years that I was gone, but I quickly figured out it wasn’t for me. Part of it is, I will admit, since I am so different from everyone who works there. I must say that the clients were not, NOT, the issue. I still think the world of those girls. But let me explain what I mean by different.
I am saved. I go to church. I will crow it out there to everyone. Jesus is Lord of all and I am very humbled that He loves me as He does and thankful. The Holy Spirit does a work inside of you once you are saved. You change. I have always heard everyone talk about that. I kept going by how I feel inside. I didn’t feel different. There were many things that I didn’t change my opinion on. I say what I think and every so often that may involve a not so nice word. God knows me and loves me as I am. Running with these ideas, I thought that I could handle things. I quickly found out that the more I was around people who drop the f-bomb every other word, who spouts out things that make no sense as far as things go, I was not like them any longer. That may be the factor that really did me in. Being around these things, I try to be as unlike this as possible. I dropped a lot of the not so nice words I have said when I got mad, even after being saved. Dirty language is not pretty, especially if you are a girl and especially a Christian. I never in my wildest dreams thought I would be turned that way. Boy did I underestimate myself. I never doubt that God could change me, I just didn’t blatantly notice it. Also since I spend most of my free time with my family, my kids, my church and church family, and a bunch of critters, I hadn’t had opportunity to notice that apparently, I am blatantly going as far the other way from how most people act. Wow. This was an eye-opening experience. And an FYI–no one bothered to text or ask what was up and why I left. Nice to know you are missed, huh? I know I can’t forever run from people who don’t believe what I believe. But there were other factors that went into my decision but this was the one that I really noticed the most.
The rest of the story I will save for a later time, just know that I didn’t appreciate several things. It was time for a change. So I got that change. I have a new part-time job, at a location I will not mention. It is legal. Ha! It is somewhere that I loved before I started working there. And the people there are awesome! I have figured that out from day one. I have only worked there 2 days so far but I am quite happy and thankful for the change. The only thing I will say is please be respectful of everyone you come in contact with in your daily life. Every job–EMTS, store employees, fast food workers, group home employees, electricians. Doctors, truck drivers–it is all a struggle. You have to know your role and your job on any of those listed as well as every other job out there in this world. All jobs are tough. There are no jobs out there that anyone needs to look down their noses at because they all take practice and knowledge. I don’t expect every day at my new job to be a cake walk but I do know that it is so far more enjoyable than the last one. And honestly? The mental stress isn’t there. I work hard, I am tired, I spin circles and spend a lot of time on my feet. But when I go home, I can proceed with the day and know what I did was the best that I can do in my learning the new job phase and not worry about it. Everyone has made me feel welcome and I don’t feel like I am the low person on the totem pole although I am. If you can find a job like that, don’t get rid of it. Keep it as long as you can.
This is random but I have been watching That Metal Show reruns. I could really go for a whole episode of the top 5 or Stump the Trunk. All the music I listened to growing up (and still do for that matter) is classified as metal. That is something interesting. Needless to say I love the show. 🙂
This is all I have for now. I have many more thoughts but I think I will let them spin for now. Have a great night! Come link up on Wednesday!
–S
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